Sticking with it

I'm sorry I've been absent. A late summer bug has run through our house and it's been my turn to have it this past week.

Have you ever noticed that things happen to get you side tracked?

Since the beginning of the year, I have felt like this year had something big and wonderful in store for me. I started the year out with tapping and concentrating on living in the 'certain way' (as Wallace Wattles puts it). And then I got sick. I thought it was just a cold but I hadn't felt that miserable in years. It lasted for a couple of weeks.

Well, during that time all I wanted to do was sleep. Aside from taking care of my family, that's all I did do. I let the tapping and working towards the life I wanted fall by the side. As I felt better, I got back into the self improvement things I had been doing but not with the fire I had felt before.

Then recently I've felt the fire come back and the feeling of something big and wonderful happening has returned. And here I am sick again.

I've decided that this is some kind of self sabotage. Do I allow my body to become sick to stop me from something big and wonderful happening in my life because I'm afraid of the changes it might bring? Or do I feel like I am unworthy of something that good? Is it a test from the Universe to see if I mean it when I ask for wonderful things?

This time around, even though I have felt terrible, I have continued with my tapping and I have continued in my inspired action. If it is a test, I've decided that I am passing with flying colors and that I am worthy of wonderful things and I am open to receiving them.

Has anyone else noticed this type of thing? I wonder, also, if my body is clearing itself as I clear the clutter and unwanted/un-useful paradigms in my conscious and subconscious mind.